i love the mornings when we go back to sleep after 6 am.
this is my last week at home with miss avery. i may have cried while filling out paperwork for daycare. wednesday was fabulous. avery slept for a 7 hour stretch tuesday night! and then went back to sleep until 6 am and then even took a short nap after that. it was raining outside, freezing rain which we almost never get, so we stayed in bed for another hour just napping. i think every day should start with an extra hour of sleep.
we went to look at more homes. can this be over soon please? we finally found a home that we both liked, in a good school district, which didn't need a lot of work. and then we found out that it was under contract. just 4 days after it had been listed. so, we're back to looking at some older homes that need a little tlc. we'll see.
i cannot believe that i have to drop avery off at daycare on tuesday. the other night i had a dream that i was dropping her off and then i couldn't sleep for the rest of the night. every time i walk by the school it makes me sad. and i walk by every day. i get sad a lot. i know she'll be fine, but i just don't want her to go. i'm also stressed out about pumping at work and having enough milk for her during the days. my goal was to make it to 1 year without supplementing formula and i'm worried about making that happen. i know that a little formula would be fine, but this is something that i really do want. both for me and for avery. i was on a conference call the other day and my boss said 'we're so excited to have you back in the office' and i couldn't really say anything. i know i should have said 'can't want to see you, too' but all i could think was 'it's the last place i want to be'. maybe it would be easier if i liked my job or found it stimulating, but in all honesty my job is boring. i spend a lot of time reading regulations, putting together powerpoints, and on conference calls. and then i worry that a regulator will come to a facility and we'll be fined a couple hundred thousand dollars for something stupid.
avery's napping now and we're going to run some errands when she wakes up. tonight is pizza night, which i started doing about a month ago because i cannot think of enough meals to cook for 7 days a week. friday's used to be eat at a restaurant night but since our baby likes for us to pace up and down the house between the hours of 5 pm and 8 pm dinners out don't happen much any more. to be honest, i don't really miss them.